Not Writing…Courting Monsters


The Not Writing Writer is a Monster Courting Insanity

Franz Kafka

Sometimes, not writing is the perfect prescription for a writer, given the right circumstances. Sometimes my thoughts are too chaotic to put pen to paper, or fingers on the keyboard…

Sometimes, Not writing…

Is a way of hiding from my dark emotions and avoiding voicing those chaotic thoughts…

Sometimes, Not writing…

Is not being present in the moment. Not writing my way through those dark emotions and untangling those chaotic thoughts is the way to falling into their deep pit of fury.

Sometimes, Not writing…

Is not remembering that putting those emotions, those twisted knots of thoughts down on paper is the way to remember to breathe.

Sometimes, Not writing…

Is the pattern that pulls me deeper into the dark, battling to see the light.

Sometimes, Not writing…

Is the fear that my words are worthless or worse that they are too heavy for the page to carry.

Sometimes, Not writing…

Is the monster courting insanity, flirting with danger and drowning in grief.

Sometimes, Writing…

Is to remind myself that in a world of chaos and unpredictability, sometimes the only world I can control is the one that spills out of the ink that I put on the page.

Sometimes, Writing…

Is the prescription to calm my fears, fears of the unknown, fears of the future, fears for those I love.

Sometimes, Writing…

Is the way I can keep my record of the unknotting of chaotic thoughts in a world gone mad.

Sometimes, Writing…

Is the motivation that allows me to push forward another day with the promise of hope.

Sometimes, Writing…

Is a way to heal these open wounds, a way to sort these missing puzzle pieces.

Sometimes, Writing…

Is the way I breathe. The reminder that if I am creating then I am filling the black holes of nothing that chaos creates.

Sometimes, Writing…

Is the truest part of me.

Now, Writing…

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Writer | Poet | Wanderer | Insomniac Writer.In.Procaffeination ... between real deadlines and imagined deadbodies Survives on coffee. Eats Poetry for Breakfast.

4 thoughts on “Not Writing…Courting Monsters

  1. A lot of people think writers have to be writing ALL the time, but I think the moments a writer spends not writing is just as important because those are the moments when our chaotic thoughts run wild and though painful those moments may be, I think for many of us, they’re necessary. Light and darkness coexist after all.

    I also love the transition in this piece from not writing to writing and then finally, to now writing.

    1. Thank you for your comment Jade. I completely agree — writing, like life itself, exists in the moments caught between light and darkness. “Sometimes, not writing….is vital for the breathing space our thoughts need. I’ve personally never agreed with the opinion that writers Must be Writing at all times. Thank you for visiting today and for following. I just had a look at your lovely site too. Now, I’m going to go drink in some more of your words.

    1. Thank you for your beautifully expressed comment. May all of us writers remember that even in the darkest times, especially in the darkest times, writing is the gift we have been given to help bring light. May we all remember that.

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